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The name is TEO CHONG MOH prefer people calling me 'cm', 'QQ', 'Qiao qiao'.
Going 19 this year .
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me,mj,hui.ting friends 4ever
able to have a house by 2019
my him
`friends wif karen again`
`me and mj open shop`
`something special on my 18th birthday(done by yl and wt!!)`
`work happily`
more clip on wig(half done)
buy clip on wig(done)
happy trip to thailand(done)
`longer hair(consider done 2008)`
overseas trip wif yl and wt(half done)
hair assitant job(done)
earn my first $1000
new hp
save money
more cute cute suff
`able to learn hairdressing in japan`
`can go see hairshow`
`open chalet for my 18ys old birthday(will never come true)`
as the days passes by, it means that i am getting closer to getting enlist, sometime i think i am prepared, but somtimes i think i am not...i suddenly felt that i have alot of thing i haven't done but i know i can do it after i finish my 2 years in the police academy...
many things to worry...
worry that i will get my future bunk mates in trouble...
worry that i wont be able to cope up with the tough exercise there...
worry that i wont go along wif the people there...(and i will say y i worry this part)
worry about my mum...(will say this part)
hi ya lots of things to worry...
ok let's go to the worry about the wont go along wif the people there
yesterday midnight, mei jing called me and ask wanna meet so i was ok as i am not sleeping that soon...and she told me lots of things like a old uncle wanted to date her la....misses her lao gong...and she jux like wanted somebody accompany so she called a guy name "kervin"
so we decided to meet that "kervin" at geylang(where he was ) and i knew he(kervin) wont want me around, he(kervin) jux treated me as if i am invisible, but in mind i already told myself to be prepared for this SHIT to happen...BUT...
i really hate this....is like very dunno wad to explain but is like...i can't be myself there....i can't get too close to mj(but is a fact that we are close friends) or eles he(kervin) will comfirm hate me...and this is not the 1st time there was once i RMB very clearly in my mind...but not trying to blame anyone...
which was when i met karen and i didn't know she had a boyfriend and if i knew she had a boyfriend i wont get so close to her...and the boyfriend secretly call me to go out and wanted to have a so called talk but it was actually like wanting to beat me up...and i RMB i cried as i was SHOCKED...
so already i cant go along wif my sister's boyfriend so can i still get along wif my future bunk mates?!
and the worry about my mum part...
i am like thinking i am like my closeness wif my brother is like going further apart lol...i dunno wad he is doing...and he is like not taking any responsiblity for the actions he do....
like he knew already that he is going out wif us(family) and he still go meet his friends and when he forgets the time we try calling him and sometime he didn't answer the phone and sometime he say "reaching home, reaching home" and we waited so long....
and i was thinking if i enlist already, how is my mum going to handle her stress....hi ya lots of thing to worry la!!!! i really wish my brother can just think at least 50% like me and not acting like a kid anymore....
anyway last midnight i went home about 5:30 am in the morning as went out wif mj and i was thinking not to put my temporary fringe extension but it look strange
feeling not myself i wear the extension and it really is much better...
went to geylang as mention above then went to east coast to play pool but kervin and his friends was like playing and me and mj was doing out own stuff la...so it was abit like regreted comming out lol....
haiz i really dunno wad to do it is not that i have a fuck face or my personality sucks but y is it jux hard to get along wif male friends!!!!! wanted to jux cry last night....
