This is my secret diary. i will wrote anything i want here
Every one can spy my diary
Every one can feel my story
But no one can make a sweet memory like me!
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i am contactable at swaty_qq@hotmail.com or 96384518
E~i~E~n
The name is TEO CHONG MOH prefer people calling me 'cm', 'QQ', 'Qiao qiao'.
Going 19 this year .
Endless~Story
all blog spammers to die!
me,mj,hui.ting friends 4ever
able to have a house by 2019
my him
`friends wif karen again`
`me and mj open shop`
`something special on my 18th birthday(done by yl and wt!!)`
`work happily`
more clip on wig(half done)
buy clip on wig(done)
happy trip to thailand(done)
`longer hair(consider done 2008)`
overseas trip wif yl and wt(half done)
hair assitant job(done)
earn my first $1000
new hp
save money
more cute cute suff
`able to learn hairdressing in japan`
`can go see hairshow`
`open chalet for my 18ys old birthday(will never come true)`
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ wah sian!!! i still haven't shop for new year clothes lei...stress but seriously la...i think i also no mood to shop for clothes also la...so on that day if i go shopping i will jux do a quick one lol!!! ~ ~ ~ right now i also quite scared that i will get confine during chinese new year...dunno la...really la the days wif the blackie hor really will be not a good day la.....but wad to do maybe i done bad things to him during my past life ~ ~ ~ anyway i got pics to post but sometime quite lazy ~ ~ while preparing to go karen's house to style her hair
and finally a nice picture wif karen!!!!
and a candid pic of wei xiang
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dunno why i don feel like a lamp-post when i am wif karen and wei xiang lei....cause maybe mj and carmel are aways touching each other la(like wad normally couples do).....but karen and wei xiang... ya they are also very sweet and can see they treasure each other but really feel more comfy la
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dunno how to explain it but still it really is fun wif wei xiang sometimes maybe cause i have this fear barrier while wif carmel cause in the 1st place he already hate gays? which i don understand why cause even being a gay myself i don think we will harm people lol...? dunno la even now adays i also fell quite comfy wif hui ting(mj sis) boyfriend genesis lol....dunno y also
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and pictures of me when i go nuts...lol sometimes in a blue moon i will go crazy and high and sometime my family also will play along la...but IT IS FUN!!!!
dunno why but i know i should be happy to see mj being in a relationship but somehow there is this emptiness inside me maybe cause i already am used to it when i need her she will aways be there for me....haiz....now adays i am also stress but not in work but camp friends...
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is like recently they will ask me how i have sex la.....have sex wif who etc....then i also be honest wif them and reply and recently i sense a fear in them and i really want to tell them i am really harmless is not like i will go drug them and rape them or something lol? i, myself also know i am not a beast!
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haiz....in the first place it is also hard to welcome people to welcome gays lol....sad...
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but seriously sometime before i close my eyes to sleep i will also think why not am i like born normal like other people...it really is hard going the adnormal line but i seriously got no intrest in girls la...really feel like crying at times also
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and die...recently i also feel like going for a sex change....it is true that i ever think of that during secondary days but stop thinking of it cause no point la...i will also look ugly if i am a girl...but why am i having that thought again haiz!!!!
